I am not quite sure of exactly what it was that awakened me so early on that Saturday morning. Perhaps it was the song in the night that kept rehearsing in the chambers of my mind. Throughout the day, the words would have kept playing.
We have those days when a song continues its beat, its message, as we go about our usual. Even before Spotify and Pandora, we experienced an internal play list. Some mornings are like that, and rather than hearing a lullaby to quieten and soothe us back to slumber we hear a beat that gets our feet on the floor. Since the lullaby didn’t play, I decided to head to the kitchen, get the coffee started and tap the “skip” arrow in my own mental Pandora Play List to get on to the next song.
The tranquility of predawn offers delightful moments for thoughts, thanksgivings and musings. Spending time in serene meditation moved the “song” from its rhythmic beat to reflections of the dirges that currently play in the minds of so many women. In an article published in Christian Women Today the number one issue presently plaguing women is low self-esteem.
Despite the fact that God, in his word continually reassures us that we were created on purpose for his purpose and that he loves us unconditionally, most find it difficult to have that song on our play list. We have the idea that God doesn’t really mean me. He wrote that song for others.
For you created my inmost being;
you knit me together in my mother’s womb.
14 I praise you because I am fearfully and wonderfully made;
your works are wonderful,
I know that full well.
There are so many sources that add to our play list. All of them always crowding in to add to it. In subtle ways, those who are closest to us are the ones who add the songs. They can add the melodies, the lyrics, that conspire to undermine or to build up our confidence. Too often, and that unconsciously, the refrains that sound the loudest are those we need to delete.
Our culture beats the drum loudly to the rhythm of acceptance. For most women, it is unreal to think of having the poise of a runway model, the charm or grace of what is generally accepted, the title that impresses, or any other thing that society deems important. We know hearing that music is not reality, but the songs continue to play.
Could it be that we might be fearful of thinking more highly of ourselves than we should so we refuse building those things that would make us a more fit servant? How do we find the right balance? While Romans 12:3 warns us of the very thing we might be fearful of, let’s look at the last part of that admonition.
but rather think of yourself with sober judgment,
in accordance with the faith God has distributed to each of you.
The J.B. Phillips translation words it like this:
“Try to have a sane estimate of your capabilities
by the light of the faith that God has given to you all.”
Again, we tap the “skip” arrow. Another drumming. Or is it pounding? Similar message. And the beat goes on. In admiring the talents and gifts of others it is to fall into the rhythm of comparison. We can find it humiliating when we can’t measure up to a gift that another one has while we ignore many we have been given. Again, we go to Paul’s message to the Romans in the 12th chapter, continuing in verse 4, to find our encouragement.
For just as each of us has one body with many members,
and these members do not all have the same function,
so in Christ we, though many, form one body,
and each member belongs to all the others.
We have different gifts, according to the grace given to each of us.
If your gift is prophesying, then prophesy in accordance with your faith;
if it is serving, then serve; if it is teaching, then teach;
if it is to encourage, then give encouragement;
if it is giving, then give generously; if it is to lead,
do it diligently; if it is to show mercy, do it cheerfully.
The harmony of self-confidence is actually playing. We just can’t hear it. To move from the music that drags us under and on to the tunes of God-confidence, we must skip the “skip” arrow and move to a new genre. The list is extensive and is found in browsing God’s word. A good place to begin is to hear the song God sings over you.
The Lord your God is with you,
the Mighty Warrior who saves.
He will take great delight in you;
in his love he will no longer rebuke you,
but will rejoice over you with singing.”
Just as our God rejoiced over those of Jerusalem, so he rejoices over us with singing. His songs are prolific.
Listen to the music.